Much ado about - nothing?

I went to a show last night, Felix joined a new band, they played together for the first time. i do know the other two as well, but I would not have come out for them. Some people think Felix and I are into each other a little too much. I don't know. I like him, and I like that he seems to like me in a similar way. Always a lot of flirtatious ado, but we never even kissed. And for a year or two I've been kissing almost everybody who brought his face within reach. I know, it's sad and pathetic too, but that's the way it went basically.
I like it the way it is with Felix. Once you kissed somebody you like but don't really want to be with it gets complicated. Fun times are over and you feel arkward around each other. I had that too often, no more kissing (or else) with people I have to and want to see afterwards. I vowed that before. (I also said I would't drink and last night I drank from his beer. I don't think it's complete failure to have had six or seven sips of beer, but it annoys me anyway....)
I'm so far from a normal, mature relationship it's not even funny. The only guys I ever have anything with are younger (much younger) and innocous, I'd never have to consider them for anything serious. Having a problem there, huh?
The bad thing is, though: I'm jealous if Felix turn to other girls. I want him where he is the way he is. I'm an egoistic asshole, me.